SIPPIN 40z! (exaust) wrote,
SIPPIN 40z!
exaust

OK, on a more serious note now.

So I didn't sleep at all last night. Not at all. In the absense of sleep, my brain decided to review the past 5 or so years of my life.
Consequently, I read through my entire livejournal, and decided a few things.

1. I'm actually going to start using this thing again for real

2. I miss my old personality; however, I can't seem to wrap my head around how and/or why I used to smoke so much weed

Anyways, I am really really really proud of myself. Really. For real. I read an entry (a few entries, actually) that I wrote a good 2 years ago, where I stated that I wanted to come down south. I really did it. I'm here. I mean granted the fact that at the time I had visions of Savannah or a serious rural town but nonetheless, I have a Georgia address. And I am slowly developing a Georgian accent.
In retrospect, if I were to repeat the situation, I don't know if I would be able to make the desicion again. You know, to drop everything that I know and move 1000 miles downward to a big city in a state where I knew not one single person. But I was right. It has made me a better person, for the most part.. at least it's helped me grow incredibly.
Back to the past, the one thing that is sort of ironic is (I doubt there is much of a correlation here but who knows) that once I quit smoking weed I seemed to not be as close with my siblings. I mean I guess I realize that that was our "bonding time" if you will but damn.
Also, I think I really was much more intelligent back when I used to burn all the time.. but that is probably because I just drink far too much beer now. Farrrrrrrrr too much beer. Or maybe I just feel really stupid right now because I'm running on no sleep.
But, on the bright side, I think I'm going to stop drinking for a bit.
Maybe then I'll start sleeping again.
Definitely not rekindling my marijuana habit... not yet, at least.
Maybe I'll try sobriety for once in my life.
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